I just got home from school (Of day 3 of 5th grade) and already I can’t hold in my tears anymore. My biggest, most nicest, most funniest crush ever… Has been pretty much ignoring me. After all that’s happened in 3rd and 4th grade! Why, why, why did this happen to me?!?! We seemed so well together, as a couple. But, I guess now, he’s probably just going to leave me behind without saying a word, and I’ll be left with my crazy fantasies at night. I’m so crazy, I made a song about my sadness. (Listen to a song called “Iron Man” by a band named “Black Sabbath” and that’s what this song kinda sounds like)
“I am sobbing here, looking at the walls– filled with fear”
“Why would he do this to me, just to make me feel so extreme”
“The tears won’t stop flowing, I should just be going”
It gets worse. When I was basically almost sobbing at recess, I was walking towards the fence that surrounds the playground, my crush and his 2 other friends were there (I didn’t notice them… yet) and when I was almost there, they ran away… LAUGHING?!
What a great way to get more suicidal thoughts, right? Right. 😦 😦 😦